I get it. You wanted to feel better, which is why you started practicing qigong in the first place. You wanted to heal your body, your mind, and perhaps even your spirit.
And things were going great — until the shit hit the fan and the qigong cleansing began!
Cleansing that begins as a result of your qigong practice is a real phenomenon. It’s known by many names, including:
- qigong growing pains
- qigong cleansing
- qi detoxification
- qi purging
- a healing crisis
The good news is that qigong cleansing is a temporary phase, and it’s also a sign that you are healing! In fact, it’s often a sign that the qigong method you’re following is powerful!
The bad news is that it’s no fun. No fun at all.
Self-Diagnosing Your Qigong Cleansing
In this article, I’ll help you to determine whether or not you’re experiencing a bout of qigong cleansing.
First of all, you need to understand that cleansing happens in ALL holistic healing modalities including (but not limited to):
- qigong (and tai chi)
- acupuncture
- Chinese herbal medicine
- chiropractic
- massage therapy
Whenever you’re getting to the root cause of a health problem, there will be growing pains.
This is confusing for us because we’re used to Western Medicine, which typically just masks the symptoms of chronic illness rather than getting to the root cause. So it often comes as a shock when we undergo intensive healing and experience signs of cleansing.
Here are some common signs that you are cleansing as a result of your qigong practice:
- Old injuries start hurting again
- Your emotions become more volatile
- You experience bouts of mild diarrhea
- Your breath starts to stink
- You start to stink
- An old illness flares up
- You experience bouts of insomnia
Typically, you’ll experience two or three of these during a cleansing period. However, there’s something else that we need to look for, and it’s critical:
To accurately diagnose a case of qigong cleansing, one or more of the above symptoms MUST be combined with a general feeling of wellness immediately after your qigong sessions.
In other words, you should finish most of your qigong sessions with a feeling of wellness IN ADDITION to a few signs of cleansing.
What if you don’t experience a general feeling of wellness?
Then it’s possible that you’re experiencing something entirely different, something called Qigong Deviation.
The Truth About Qigong Deviation
A lot of fear has been generated since the 1950s regarding qigong deviations, and most of it is due to ignorance. In fact, many Chinese people are afraid to practice qigong because they have been warned about qigong deviation.
The Chinese term for deviation might explain why there is so much fear and confusion:
走火入魔
zou huo ru mo
escape fire enter demon
Yikes! Fire and demons? That doesn’t sound good! Not good at all!
Actually, this is just a classical expression but, as often happens in classical Chinese, the words are meant to be metaphorical, not literal.
Qigong deviation is real, but it is rare and there are no demons, there are no fires, and there’s nothing to be afraid of. Even if you deviate, you can get back on track — if you have the right tools. And by the end of this article, you’ll know exactly what tools you need.
Kundalini Syndrome
The most common type of qigong deviation that I’ve seen is what is often called Kundalini Syndrome.
Kundalini Yoga is an Indian practice and is thus not directly related to qigong. However, the qigong art called The Small Universe (Xiao Zhou Tian, also called the Microcosmic Orbit) is quite similar to Kundalini Yoga, and both practices have similar patterns of deviation.
Since 2005, I estimate that I’ve helped 3-4 dozen people to quickly heal from “Kundalini Syndrome” whether it was caused by practicing Kundalini Yoga, The Small Universe, sitting meditation, or some other esoteric art.
IMPROPERLY practicing these arts, I should say.
When practiced correctly, the Small Universe is not only safe but restorative. I have not practiced Kundalini Yoga myself, but based on what I’ve read and some discussions with experts, I think it’s safe to say that the same principle applies here. If you practice correctly — which includes the guidance of a living teacher — then you won’t experience deviations.
Or rather, deviations may occur but will be swiftly remedied with the teacher’s help.
When Your Teacher Can’t Fix You
Unfortunately, many teachers simply aren’t trained to handle qigong deviations. I can’t totally blame them for this. People teach qigong, tai chi, and yoga at many different levels, and that’s generally a good thing.
For example, someone who is teaching tai chi at a community center after having studied it for maybe 5-10 years shouldn’t be expected to understand the deeper intricacies of Chinese Medicine.
Of course, they also shouldn’t be teaching advanced exercises like the Small Universe, but that’s a topic for another day. (Click here to read my article on the dangers of the Small Universe.)
I think it’s important for teachers to be transparent about the limits of their knowledge, but it’s also important for students to have a highly-calibrated bullshit detector.
Too often, teachers try to give bullshit answers rather than just admit that they don’t know. As a student of qigong or any esoteric energy art, you need to avoid this kind of BS like the plague. It can get you into trouble, so it’s YOUR responsibility to detect the bullshit.
If you suspect that your teacher can’t help you through the muddy terrain that you’re stuck in, if you think he’s just bullshitting — then find another teacher ASAP.
Recognizing Qigong Deviations
For perspective, let me use Ray as a case study. Ray (not his real name) came to me in desperation. He had been practicing The Small Universe for 2-3 years out of a book. Despite many warning signs, like mental fog, mild chest pain, and anxiety, he stubbornly kept practicing. By the time he reached out to me for help, he was a hot mess.
He wasn’t sleeping, his mind was foggy, he had weird pains all over his body including headaches, and he had muscle spasms in his legs. These are some common signs of qigong deviation.
But here’s the clincher:
“How do you feel immediately after your qigong sessions?” I asked him.
“Honestly, I feel exhausted and drained,” he said. “I often need to rest after practicing qigong.”
The fact that Ray didn’t feel a general sense of wellness after his sessions, combined with his other symptoms, made this a good candidate for a case of qigong deviation.
The symptoms Ray was experiencing were likely not cleansing or detoxing. These were the signs of his qi running wild.
Here are some typical signs of a Qigong Deviation:
- difficulty focusing
- mental fogginess
- headaches
- strange pains all over the body
- muscle spasms
- chest pain*
- anxiety attacks
- fatigue, sometimes severe
- insomnia
*Note: because chest pain is a potentially serious sign, you should always contact a physician. It may be nothing serious, like in the case of a panic attack, but it could be something life-threatening, like a heart attack. You need someone to do a differential diagnosis on you to rule out more serious problems. I recommend that you also see an acupuncturist after you have passed the emergency phase. Once that’s completed, we can analyze the problem from a qigong perspective.
How to Hurt Yourself With Qigong
It’s important to recognize just how stubborn Ray was. Despite the fact that he didn’t feel good after his sessions, despite the fact that he was getting worse and worse, and despite the fact that he didn’t have a teacher — Ray kept practicing. Every day. For 2 years.
This kind of stubbornness is an asset when combined with the guidance of a good teacher, but in Ray’s case, it was a liability.
In many of the cases I’ve seen, stubbornness played a big role. These students just kept practicing despite many warning signs. It’s as if they sprained their ankle while running, but continued to run every day for years.
Finally, Ray reached out to me. He found me because of my blog, and sent me an email. From there, he signed up for a private coaching package and we did a series of Skype lessons.
There’s a happy ending to this story, of course. With my help, it took about 9 weeks for Ray to correct the deviation and heal by about 90%. (The remaining 10% took a few more months, but he was still a happy camper.)
Typically, it takes anywhere from 6 weeks to fix a mild case of qigong deviation to 12 weeks for a severe case, so Ray was somewhere in the middle.
In other words, even if you mess yourself up badly, even if you deviate far from the proper path — you aren’t broken. You are fixable.
Fixing a Deviation
Shen is one of the Three Treasures of qigong, along with qi and jing. It loosely translates to “mind” or “spirit”. (Note: don’t confuse the Three Treasures with the Triple Gems below. They are different.)
If your shen is disturbed, then it’s difficult to fix your qi deviation without help. You can get help from several people, including a psychologist, an acupuncturist, or even a close friend, but you may also need help from a teacher (or healer) who has experience with qigong deviation.
So what do I prescribe to students who have deviated?
It depends on the specific case, but the first thing I do is ask them to stop all advanced practices, including sitting meditation. Then I typically teach:
- Entering Zen
- Smiling from the Heart
- Flowing Breeze Swaying Willow or Five Animal Play
- Consolidating Qi at Dantian
- The Closing Sequence
This routine should be practiced at least once a day, and sometimes twice a day if you’re feeling up to it.
Those who are familiar with my teaching will see nothing special in there. In fact, those are the basics of the 5-Phase Routine.
Bingo. And this makes sense, right? To cleanse a deviation caused by improperly practicing advanced techniques, it makes sense that the solution lies in going back to basics.
You can learn all of these skills in my book and the free online course that comes with it.
You can also take advantage of our free group on Facebook, where you can connect with me and ask me questions.
So there you have it. For the price of a book, you can learn everything you need to know to heal a qigong deviation. Now get to work!
Cleansing is NOT a Deviation
Let’s get back to the topic of cleansing.
The unspoken fear that many students have once they start to experience signs of cleansing is that they’re doing something wrong. Even if they don’t know about the phenomenon of Qigong Deviation, they are worried. Here’s the problem with that:
Worrying blocks the flow of energy.
In other words, worrying constantly about a Qigong Deviation will actually make a deviation more likely!
As I mentioned the most critical part of the diagnostic process is to answer this question:
Do you feel a general sense of wellness after you finish your qigong sessions?
In the case study above, Ray’s answer was the clincher. He didn’t feel well. He felt exhausted.
If you feel even a mild sense of wellness after practicing, then you can relax! It’s not a deviation!
In that case, you have 2 choices.
- Keep practicing the way you’ve been practicing and push through the cleansing
- Cut your practice in half so that the cleansing is less uncomfortable.
I like to use the following rule to gauge whether or not to push through: If the cleansing is so intense that I can’t focus on my work, then I take it as a sign to cut back on my practice.
But what if you’re not sure? What if you had a bad session this morning and you’re wondering if you’ve deviated.
The Qi Diary
I encourage all my students to keep a Qi Diary. Different students choose different formats for their diary. Here are a few examples:
- A beautiful journal
- Apple Notes
- A Microsoft Word Document
- A regular notebook
- An Excel spreadsheet
A Qi Diary is CRITICAL if you are a worrywart.
You absolutely need to keep track of your progress, ideally every few days. It can be as simple as one sentence. Here are some examples of entries in your Qi Diary
- “Felt pretty good after 17 minutes of qigong today.”
- “Still some aches, but my mood is definitely improving.”
- “Not a great session today. Couldn’t focus for some reason. But I still did it!”
- “My knee seems to hurt less today. It was a 5 out of 10, and now it’s a 4 or a 3.”
- “AWESOME session today!”
By keeping a diary, you are constantly answering the question about whether or not you generally feel good after your practice. You have an ongoing history of your ups and downs with qigong!
This gives you PERSPECTIVE. If you have a bad session now and then it’s no big deal as long as the overall trend is one where you feel good practicing your qigong.
In other words, if you generally feel good after your sessions, if you’re getting a variety of minor benefits as well as some growing pains — then you can safely conclude that the aches and pains are part of the healing process. In other words, you’re NOT deviating.
If you suspect that you’ve deviated, then it’s important for you to reach out to me. (The details for how to conact me are below.) Together, we can nip the worrying in the bud. At the very least, if you know that you’re going through a cleansing phase, you can relax knowing that it’s not a form of deviation.
Conclusion: You Need the Triple Gem
If I could sum up what tools you need in order to deal with a qigong deviation, or even to understand and work through qigong cleansing, I could simply say this: You need the Triple Gem (or Three Jewels)
The Triple Gem is an ancient Zen philosophy that consists of (duh) three things:
- the teacher
- the teachings
- the community
If you want to succeed in your qigong healing journey, then these three things are absolute necessities.
You need a good teacher. Someone experienced, someone who doesn’t try to BS you, someone you trust. Your teacher is your guide and she will help you get back on track. And yes, this teacher can be online.
You need good teachings. In my school, that means the 5-Phase routine, the 4 Pillars of Qigong, and a systematic method. The basics are critical for fixing or moving past cleansing or deviation problems. The qi diary would fall under this category too because keeping a qi diary is one of my basic teachings.
You need a good qigong community. Again, this can be an online community. In fact, for many of my students, our online community was the missing piece of the puzzle. Finding an offline community is not possible for many people because of their location. Luckily, the internet lets us connect no matter where we live. For example, I currently have students from 38 different countries in my online community!
If you want to connect with me or our community, then you have 2 options:
- Join our free Facebook group and ask a question there;
- Post your question below.
Please DO NOT send me an email. Sorry, but I’ve already got too many pots on the stove. My Qigong 101 and 201 students are my priority, and they keep me plenty busy. In order to give them the attention that they deserve (and paid for), I simply cannot answer private emails or offer any more private coaching sessions.
If you do have a qigong deviation – which, again, is rare – then the solution is right here on this page. You need look no further. Within a few weeks of following my advice here, you will already feel better. Now get to work!
From the heart, Sifu Anthony
Thank you Sifu for posting Qigong cleansing vs deviation. Very helpful! Recently, I experience very stinky gas and super soft bowel movements (not diarrhea). Perhaps this is from a Qigong cleansing. I generally feel good after a Qigong session, therefore I think it’s a Qigong cleansing which might have started after I began practicing twice a day. I’ll continue with practicing 2x/day. . . I appreciate the short examples of keeping a Qigong diary. I’ll start keeping a diary of short sentences (I don’t have time for more than that!) Thank you for your teaching and care.
Sure, a likely explanation is that you doubled your qigong dosage. I’m assuming that you also feel good after your sessions?
If the problem persists or if you’re still unsure, then just go get yourself checked out. Hearing a doctor say, “Nope, there’s nothing wrong with you,” can be liberating!
The article talks about symptoms and treatment, but I don’t understand from this what a qi deviation is and how it happens. Incorrect practise of small universe is one of the things that can cause it, I get that, but how?
Qi running wild and shen running wild doesn’t really explain much (to me at least). Would like to know what those words actually mean, ie the exact nature of the pathology.
Hi Claire. It’s a great question!
I can’t answer it using Western pathology, but I can try to explain in terms of Chinese Medicine pathology in a way that makes sense.
Personally, I believe that most cases of qi deviation involve a gradual and systematic disruption of qi (energy) and Shen (mind). It’s sort of like the process that happens when you practice the 5-Phase Routine and you get healthier — except in reverse.
So instead of clearing blockages and focusing the mind, you’re hardening blockages and dulling the mind.
And then this becomes a negative feedback loop. The mind is critical for qi flow, so as it gets duller, the qi flow gets worse. And as it gets worse, symptoms start to pop up, which end up making you worried and afraid, which disrupts the qi even more. And the more the qi is disrupted, the harder it is to focus the mind, kind of like how it’s hard to concentrate when you haven’t eating in a while.
Sometime else that sometimes happens with the Small Universe is that qi gets siphoned away from the 12 Primary Meridians (like the Heart and Spleen meridians), and into the Eight Extraordinary Meridians (like the Ren and Du meridians). If you don’t have solid foundation, this forces energy away from where it’s needed most and into 2 channels that aren’t even ready for that kind of energy.
It’s a bit like buying a 2nd house when you are still struggling to pay the mortgage on the first one.
I’ll stop here for now. Does this make things any clearer?
Thank you very much for your reply, that does help.
Hello Sifu, My wife and I would like to thank you, for explaining this clearly. We can advance in our journey, much better, without fear. Thank you.
Dear Sifu Anthony,
I have been trying to get help for what I think is a Qigong deviation and am at my wits end. I just got out of hospital where they did all kinds of tests but the doctors have not come up with any definite explanation. I really hope you can help me. Reading your comment about what Qi deviation is really resonates with what I have experienced.
About 2 years ago I joined a Qigong meditation class, which was supposed to be for health only, 12 days of breathing exercises for 4 hours after office. It was supposed to open up our micro cosmic orbit which would enable Qi flow to promote our health. The exercises were very simple and we had to place our tongue on the ceiling of our mouth.
Before joining the class I didn’t know anything about Qigong, micro-cosmos and such. I had been meditating with prayer on my own for many years but had not had any formal introduction to meditation.
After the class finished, I continued the breathing exercises everyday for an hour or two. I did feel energetic experiences that were very new to me, like feeling my body becoming very large, my breath slowing down and almost stopping, etc. I felt calm and enjoyed the experience but at some point I started to feel a flow almost like a current through my body, and it was very strong, going from my head downwards, sometimes through my teeth.
I went back to the teacher but he said it was self suggestion and I should just continue. This went on and the current kept getting stronger and at some point my saliva stopped flowing. I was very concerned and went back to the teacher who said I wasn’t doing enough meditation, I should increase to 2 hours, 3 hours and at some point 5 hours a day.
He told me he had taught 10 thousand people and no one had ever experienced this. At his suggestion of 5 hours meditation a day I protested and he finally told me to stop all meditation, which I did. He told me maybe I had Kundalini so I looked it up and found a Buddhist teacher to try and help me but this did not succeed even though we tried for many months.
Since then my health problems have just gotten worse; I have been told I had some autoimmune disorder, I have gastro-enterological problems, sinus problems and the worst is that the head pressure just gets worse by the day.
At this point I can’t do much other than go to the doctor, as standing or sitting are very hard, and lying down is the easiest position to stand the head pressure.
I just came out of the hospital where the doctors did multiple tests but nothing was conclusive; it’s my brain causing all this.
Basically I have quit my job and am home all day, I just don’t know what to do. I have not meditated for many months, it seems to aggravate the energy/pressure and I often feel my head is going to collapse from the pressure. The doctors have given me sleeping medication, muscles relaxants and pain killers. What should I do? I feel very afraid. I really hope you can somehow help me.
Thank you,
MA
I’m so sorry you’re having this experience.
If that teacher taught 10,000 people and never saw this, then he wasn’t paying attention. Your case is something I’ve seen many times from people practicing the Microcosmic Orbit. I think that this teacher is irresponsible and dangerous. Please steer clear of him or her.
You are not broken, but I suspect you have a case of Kundalini Syndrome. Please stop all other qigong practices and meditation practices and begin the 5-Phase Routine as soon as possible. You can learn it here:
https://academy.flowingzen.com/quiet-mind-healthy-body-qigong
And please start keeping a Qi Diary immediately.
If you practice the 5-Phase Routine twice daily for about 15 minutes per session, I think you will start to feel better within a few weeks, possibly even faster.
Please keep us posted and lean on our community for help as well. You can join us for free here: https://www.facebook.com/groups/flowingzen/
Dear Sifu Anthony,
I cannot express the relief I felt upon reading your reply and that you said there was a way out that I could try. I will definitely do what you suggested and join the facebook group and start practicing the 5 Phase Routine, as well as keeping a Qi diary.
Thank you so much, I am so grateful.
I’m glad it was helpful Marga!
I’m sorry for your bad experiences with meditation.
May I have your permission to share this with my friends, so they will more caution about it ?
If you don’t mind, I hope I can send you some pm.
Thank you
Ngo
intpras@gmail.com
It is good to know what can happen.
Thanks for the article.
Hello Sifu,
Thanks for this timely blog.
I think I may be having a deviation.
I have been doing the 5 phase routine (with 3 different exercises) since a month. 2 weeks back I experienced diarrhoea which I thought was infection, but 2 courses of medication haven’t helped to resolve it. It’s mild though.
This week I experienced a flu and insomnia (it’s in the air).
On 2 days, once during the diarrhoea and once with the flu, I had no energy to practice the routine.
On the other days that I do the routine, I don’t feel a particular wellness after the session.
Please advise. Thank you
Hi Reeti,
You are not deviated. You are, however, a worry wart. 🙂
A deviation doesn’t happen after a month of qigong practice. It happens after many months, and usually years of practicing advanced exercises.
You’ve been doing the 5-Phase Routine, which is also the fix for deviation. What you’re experiencing is qigong cleansing, not deviation.
You also caught the flu.
I suggest that you focus on The Three Golden Rules, especially rule #1. I also suggest that you start keeping a Qi Diary.
🙂 Thanks a ton for your reply……too many issues happening together had me worried. I shall relax now.
Hi Sifu. Thanks for this article. I am wondering, if we follow the five phase routine, as you teach it, is there still a risk of deviation somehow?
It’s highly unlikely since the 5-Phase Routine is also the fix for deviation.
Hi Sifu,
Thank you for this article. I’d never heard of these conditions before although, if you remember, I did experience a cleansing when we participated in the retreat. 😊
Hugs!
You and lots of other students too!
Ive been living with problems with energy due to exessive massage. Never got any solution or remedies. I massaged the lower part above the heel (dont know the name) after noticing tensions and my body would heal and “open up”. Always had problem with right leg, arm and even ear blockage on right side of my body. Chiropractic had helped me alot previously but then I started to self-rehabilate by massage on my own. My right side of the body, especially would heal along with ear opening up etc. Due to the recoverage being so very slow after each massage , I started to overdo it. I was massaging sometimes the whole day for hours. In total 3 years wherein I also consulted help through an acupuncturist. It was abou after 2 years of massaging on my own. At this time I had started to experience “weird symptos” like uncontrolled laughing / crying. After 3-4 sessions of acupuncture I felt breathing becoming better. But I continued doing massage alongside. Now I started to feel energi going through and moving in my body. It would sometimes stuck in a limb and cause spasmer ex head, arm or leg and then release that part and flow throgh the body to another limb. Everytime I stood up my body would want to go into strange qi qonq positions on its own, or just be in a yoga position although Id never practiced any of this before. This was between 2006-2009. 2009 suddenly the uncontrolled energy that was playing around in my body just ‘dropped’ after jogging and I had a sever anxiety attack with the feeling of that literally my whole life energy had left me. I felt like an empty shell and the slightest physical activity would make my heart jump. I was diagnosed with burnout in western healthcare m and also consulted the acupuncter teacher. Today 10 years later Im better. But my symptoms are still:
1) resistans while breathing, its like the stomach muscles are contra-productive.
2) heart palpitations
3) can feel energy with running my eyes througout peoples bodies and/or touching them. (like finger gets sucked in onto their triggerpoints).
4) stomach problems (burpings everytime standing after lying down)
5) constant tension in the left leg.
6) fatigue
7) feeling of ‘wind of heat’ while breathing in (at the time my stomach reflex gets stucked)
As you can see I suffer and daily think about how long I can stay like this. Ive been afraid that I have some qi devuation that will never go away since it included massaging in my situation and not any practicing of yoga or qi qong.
Any help, or consultation that you can give. Are there any solution to this?
thank you so much.
I would like help with my kundalini syndrome. What’s the best way to start using your system?
Hi Lisa. I’m sorry you’re struggling. The best option is to join my Qigong 101 program. Your timing is perfect. Registration closes tonight. Here are the details: https://academy.flowingzen.com/qigong-101-program-2021
I will do my best to support you and get you back on a good track.
I believe I’m in a cleansing period. I’m a current 101 student, I started practicing qigong Jan.1st, then started your course a few weeks later. I have never felt badly after Qigong – always happy, calm, & energized. I practice 5PR late morning before food for about 20-35minutes, then I move to body massage (extra closing sequence) in my hands, arms, core, legs and feet for round 5 min. I then move into about 20-25min of core exercises with stretching and simple yoga mixed in. About an hour each morning in all of daily practice. In my Qi journal, I’ve seen that the last two weeks have brought heightened emotions, pain in an old injury, loose bowels, and most notably, insomnia. I can handle them all, but the sleeplessness. I am starting to wonder how to fix it, and I’ve tired melatonin and lavender. I think I’m doing more to manifest my issue through my focus on it – that hamster wheel cycle.
I usually sleep 6.5hrs a night. I’ve have had some mild insomnia – about 1 or 2 nights a month for most of my life, but I use it as my “flow time” and I get up and paint and create from 1- 4 or 5am. It never has bothered me, or made me stressed out as I’m a night owl normally and this tends to be my creative time after 4pm to about midnight. Some nights the creativity keeps flowing even when I want to go to bed. I have always embraced this and it was never really an issue until about two weeks ago…
I’ve only gotten 3 nights of real sleep (at least 6.5hrs) in this last 14 day period. I got 9-10hrs of sleep each night the week before (Spring break, relaxing family time) and since then, I’m getting very bad sleep. (Maybe my body appreciated all the extra sleep for 6 straight nights.) Usually it’s that I can’t turn off my monkey brain. If I fall asleep, I stay asleep. These days, I can’t fall asleep until 3 or 4am. I’m too tired to get up and “DO” which usually helps in my normal issue. I’ve also been waking up and then not able to fall back to sleep for an hour+. As you can imagine 0 to 3hrs a night has really been hard on me!
Questions:
How long is a typical cleansing process? Do you think I’m in one?
Are there qigong calming exercises I should get up and try if I can’t sleep?
Hi Julie. Sorry to hear about the sleeping issues. I’ve been there and I know how much it can mess with one’s sanity.
The insomnia could be from trapped emotions that are surfacing but not releasing. But it could also be from something else. Has anything changed in the last month? A major life event, positive or negative? Or perhaps an anniversary of a traumatic even from years ago?
You can certainly get up and do some gentle qigong. Pushing Mountains is a good choice. You can even do it in bed, although you’ll need to butcher the form.
Fixing your sleep is the first priority. Do you have a good way to wind down at night?
Hello Sifu Anthony,
I have neurological and immune issues that started abruptly with a single use of an improper meditation technique during US Peace Corps service in Asia in 2013. This has left me bedbound in extreme pain for four of the last eight years including the last year and a half. At the time I was very new to meditation (<2 month of light breathing and yoga stretching a few times a week) and other than the stress of the slum that I lived and worked in, I was physically and psychologically healthy. The day after learning a 20-minute guided heart-crown focused visualization meditation at a seminar, I performed it with an abdominal and perineum hold (first use of these holds) that was suggested by a yoga book to use whenever meditating. I felt fine after finishing the meditation and fell asleep soon after. I woke up to an "explosion" that occurred at the base of my spine later that night and went on to develop numerous symptoms immediately afterwards. Over several years, functional medicine, functional neurology (chiropractic), Medical Qigong Therapy (intensive practice [~2hrs daily], study under teacher, and emission treatments), and TCM herbs helped me regain enough function to go from being bed bound to back to work. Unfortunately I eventually developed debilitating spasming and severe EMF hypersensitivity that caused me to have to leave my position in early 2020. Over the last year I lost the ability to practice qigong, just about any form of meditation including metta, progressive relaxation or even abdominal breathing, because they severely spread the spasming as well. Recent neurofeedback treatment helped decrease the emf sensitivity by 50%, but unfortunately it made no impact on the spasming, shocks and related headaches, visual snow, eye tracking issues and fatigue/memory challenges. The focal point of the spasming/shocks is near the belly button and radiates along a circuit roughly corresponding to the left branches of the chong mai channel but will extend to other parts of the body as well. Also more recently several months work with a classical acupuncturist focused on the chong mai, dai mai, dui mai channels and divergent vessels gave modest temporary improvements in spasming before regressing.
Do you have any suggestions for a path forward given the particularities and limitations of my case? Thank you for your time.
*Also any significant physical activity causes the spasming to spread whether it be walking for a distance, light weightlifting, riding a bike or surfing. Each can aggravate the spasming and the symptoms forcing me to lie on the floor for literally 3-4 days in agony.
Thank you again for your time and the work you do.
Hi TM. Sorry to hear about your struggles. Are you sure that this is some sort of deviation? Eight years of suffering after one meditation session? In all my years, I have never seen a deviation caused by a single session. It typically takes months or even years of improper practice.
Has someone done a thorough differential diagnosis on you? Have they ruled out everything else? To me, this sounds like something other than a qigong deviation.
Hi Sifu Anthony,
Thank you for your response. I have been to over 30+ practitioners including several Chinese Medicine Docs and a few prominent teachers in the Qigong and Yogic spheres. The core symptoms seem to be quite consistent to Kundalini syndrome including the classic explosion up the spine to the ming mein area that initially occured, kriya movements (desire to go into yoga-like positions), extreme racing mind + recurrent panic attacks (lasted for a year; no previous history b4 event) or, visual snow, spasming, extreme fatigue, etc. I was very healthy physically and pretty good mentally going into it. My blood work and immunological markers were normal at the time and for a year after. I have had multiple experienced yogic/ayurvedic practitioners indicate it was Kundalini syndrome, but they have no remedies in yogic or ayurvedic systems.
Multiple CM docs have treated me and indicated significant issues with a lot of heat in the chong mai, dai mai, ren mai and related deviations that were consistent with a serious reversal of flow caused by those holds. One said it is likely the energetic release was not well incorporated into the left side of my body. The more standard diagnosis was typically LV fire with SP, HT and KD involvement as well. Several treatments with two experienced medical qigong emission/tui na practitoners saw a lot of heat and wind consitent with LV issues and an extremely weakened stomach channel right where the yogic holds had occured. After opening up the stomach channel, the spasming would calm significantly for a matter of minutes before stagnating again with the spasming coming back.
A prominent CM and Neigong practitioner overseas suggested that I had likely released a pocket of yang, using those yogic holds, on my left side that needs to be re-anchored through qi emission and very likely is aggregating the entire area. He also said some people’s nervous systems take years to develop serious deviations with improper practice and, although rare, others can go on to develop them in extremely short amounts of time, especially with advanced yogic techniques, dependent on the vulnerability of their nervous systems.
Finally I am now working with a prominent CM doc who specializes in Gu Syndrome (chronic infections) as I got an unrelated infection a year after the meditation event + symptoms began. I had an acute amoebic infection (bad water source) + acute symptoms with a corresponding elevation in eospinophils that became chronic even after standard treatment and added to the fatigue and brain fog. He also is very familiar with qi deviation from meditation/qigong (His teacher actually ran the Chinese government’s program to rectify Qigong deviations during the 1970’s and 1980’s when Qigong became a fad there and thousands fell ill). Although that is not the main scope of his practice, he said that it sounded very consistent to qi deviation/Kundalini syndrome, and he saw the same issues with the extraordinary vessels as previous practitioners.
I hope that information helps. Thanks again.
Hi again TM. Well you’ve certainly had an long journey. It does not sound like much fun. I’m sorry you’ve suffered so much.
Okay, let me try another tack. Let’s say that you did create a deviation in just one session. If so, then you likely have an extremely powerful mind and a natural talent for moving energy. Let’s assume that both of these are also true.
With a mind that powerful plus a talent for energy — what do you think would happen if a bunch of “experts” started telling you how fucked up you are? I’m sure you’re familiar with the nocebo effect. Is it possible that their negative comments have seeped into your subconscious where, combined with your powerful mind and talent, you are actually perpetuating the blockage?
I should point out that something similar happened in the 70s and 80s with all these so-called deviations. There was a lot of nocebo going on among qigong teachers. To this day, many mainlanders are scared of qigong because of stuff they heard in the 70s and 80s.
Even if my theory is true, it doesn’t give you an easy solution. At this point, the idea of deviation is probably embedded deeply in your subconscious.
On the other hand, someone who could create such a big blockages might also be able to undo it.
You’ve got nothing to lose. Give it a try, but go big. Use whatever method or technique feels right, but literally try to undo the entire deviation in one go using the power of your mind and your will.
The result you’re shooting for is a remarkable, borderline miraculous positive change within a short period of time, say 16-48 hours. The change may not last, but for a day or a week you will feel remarkably well.
I have done this myself twice, and I’ve seen a handful of others do it.
If you can do it once, then you can do it again. More importantly, we’ll get confirmation that you and no one else hold the keys to your healing.
Good luck and may the force be with you!
Thank you for listening and your suggestion. I will see what happens. Take care, and I hope you have a good week.
Hi Anthony.
My main Qigong cleansing symptom (or what I belive to be Qigong cleansing) is “energy coldness” (more “prickly” and local then just being cold). I mostly feel it in my feet, but also other places, like the inside of my thighs and knees (i think it’s the liver meridian).
My understanding is that the “energy coldness” is stagnated energy leaving the body, and that this is a major part of Qigong/energy clensing, but it’s not on your top 5 symptom list. Can you comment?
Dear Sifu Anthony
Many thanks for your fine writings on qigong. May I ask your advice on an issue I have been experiencing and which I believe to be related to my qigong practice? I attended tai chi classes for 2 years or so and learned Yang style short and long form. Sadly, my teacher passed away and there are no other teachers locally. I can’t say that I ever really learned to feel abundant qi energy through these classes but I did very much enjoy the body development (e.g. balance and connection). I then followed an online course that showed how to develop the body through internal type exercises particularly stretching the lines of connection, learning to have a heavy body, become elastic etc. Through this, I began to really be able to feel qi in the tissues, particularly magnetic type energy. At this point, I started to work on the MCO (I know, possibly not the wisest move – but I did find some excellent online tuition). After perhaps 6 months of working on this I’ve had maybe 4 or 5 episodes of what I think sound like some kind of seizure. Essentially a really strange Deja vu and then sort of missing fragments of thoughts – a bit like trying to remember dreams. Very difficult to put into words. The episodes are short lived but leave me feeling foggy for a good while after. They seem to happen after practice but on one occasion during a session. I have stopped work on the MCO altogether but just today I was working on body development stuff (and it is very difficult now to do this without feeling qi even if only mildly) and then I had an episode afterwards albeit more minor than previous episodes.
Anyway, sorry for the overly detailed note. I’m not especially keen to return to working on the MCO but I would really love to be able to continue using qi in my tai chi internal development work and any insight you could give would be most appreciated.
Best
Simon
Hi Simon. A few years ago, I would have linked you to a bunch of blog posts, and then recommended you to buy my basic online course.
Today, you can learn more for less with my book. It’s exactly what you need. The combination of the book with the free lessons inside will help you to get back on track with your qigong.
If you want my advice, I would suggest that you leave aside the MCO (Small Universe) for a good while. There’s plenty of other qigong to explore. My book will help you with that.
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Thank you Sifu Anthony. Book purchased and MCO duly abandoned for now. It’s odd because I had already put myself off from pursuing it some time ago but for whatever reason decided to not listen to my own misgivings. All the best. Simon
Good for you, Simon. I’m glad you are setting aside the MCO for now. That was a wise choice.
Hi Sifu Anthony—
I believe I have a Qigong deviation and am seeking help. In 2019 I started medical Qigongs treatments and learned the Wudang 8, microcosmic, and other Qigongs in my quest to heal from Parkinson’s disease after stumbling across fightingparkinsonsdrugfree.com. Probably in 2021 when I started having more problems with mobility I increased my Qigongs practice. I was also getting acupuncture and Reiki treatments, I ate vegetarian for a while, and I played around with my medication doses quite a bit. I think it’s been nine months to a year that I have been feeling a cycle of energy flow from my stomach into my head and back to my stomach. It only flows into the front of my head, circling around my mouth and eyes. There’s another flow down my legs that seems to be a source of my tremors and is strong in my toes. Every day as I take my Parkinson’s medication the flow into my head gets stronger. In 2022 it got so bad that I became severely depressed, stopped my medication, and I had a psychiatric episode where I ended up hospitalized. Today I have little recollection of 2022, partly due to ECT. For the past few months the errant energy flow into my head has steadily worsened. My medical Qigongs doctor recommended Qigongs but I have not done Qigongs for months for fear of making things even worse. I probably have not had a medical Qigongs or acupuncture treatment since 2021. I think I somehow made Qi move in a path that is wrong and my medication somehow exacerbates it. My neurologist has no other patients describing this. I’m living with nonstop tremors and limited mobility but honestly I don’t know how much longer I can take the errant energy flow. I don’t know how it should be flowing. It’s scary. It’s not decreasing or plateauing. I’m curious about your thoughts? KB
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